When women become mothers,they enter a new phase in life with many unknowns
Taking home a new baby is one of the happiest moments in woman’s life.
After Mia was born i was the happiest person on earth and it was such an amazing experience..There is no easy way to start this but I have to. How can i not speak about my own PP journey !!!
In the beginning i just loved what I’ve accomplished and was proud of myself.
Everything was fine except sleepless night here and there and not knowing how to handle my tiny baby and how to raise her!
Everything seems to be going well but after 20 days or so after my delivery I have started to feel a lil uncomfortable-uneasy and pain around my abdomen . Initially I had no clue why I was having these pain?
I thought it was normal to have these pain after c-section but it got worse and there was a point when I couldn’t even sleep-eat-nurse my baby.
We finally decided to visit my mid-wife and figure out why it is happening. She prescribed few meds assuming it to be acidity since pain was just below my rib cage..but with so many reoccurrence within a week my doctor advice us to get an ultrasound done.My worst nightmare came true -the result says i have Gall Stone and seems entire sac is full . Sudden weight loss has made things more worst for me as per the radiologist .
It did scare the shit out of me and I just could not control my emotions and cried.Not for fact that i couldn’t handle it, but what worries me was my daughter coz i have to undergo a surgery again. I was confused, i couldn’t leave her with anyone since she was too small and i was clueless and lost .
I decided to take medicines for a while expecting to get some temporary relief ,but pain keeps coming back upto a point wherein i could not take it anymore . .it was such a scary and dark time that was filled with guilt for the feeling the way i did, i couldn’t eat- lost-depressed,i was sobbing mess!!
I would often call my doctor to check if there was any other alternative apart from the meds since it was not helping..my doctor suggested to visit the hospital and get intravenous injection and keep few at home incase of any emergency..these pain would occur at night-day-midnight you name it we had to rush to the hospital every second day and i felt guity and selfish leaving my baby behind with my nanny..but i didn’t have much choice. There were times when i have to stay the entire night at the emergency room or labour room never have i felt this way, my husband would ask what he could do to help knowing there was nothing he could do.
After a month we finally decided to get it done for good,it was during the month of June and thanks to my father-in-law who flew just to be here to support and take care of everything else.
I can go on and on but I’m gonna cut it short here, I finally got my surgery done and the relief..oh my God, throughout this journey all i did was Pray Pray Pray!! I felt like myself again( but did came at the cost of 5 scar marks in my stomach from the procedure ) -the beauty and joy that my baby has brought into this world!
Thank you Dear Lord!
To all the mothers out there i want you to know that what you are feeling is real-you aren’t doing any favor by ignoring-get help-speak-reach out!!